Today....

As I sit here, I can't decide if I should be mad anymore. We have had 5 suicides in this month. 5!!! I guess there is just too much sadness floating around this earth. I can't say that I don't know how they felt. I too have been down that long lonely road. I just never had the guts to follow through with it. It's almost as if you feel empty inside, as if, not a soul in the world cares for you. Nothing can fix your broken heart. I have felt so much sadness/anger today. Good people are gone, and not just this month, we've lost alot of GOOD PEOPLE. And at such young ages. This life is tough, I struggle everyday to get by. But I just look once at that beautiful little girl of mine and remember why I'm here... I've got sooo much to live for! I know these people are in a better place now. But it just breaks my heart that they needed to go so soon. It wasn't time!

Awhile back I decided to get a tattoo along my rib cage, it's a quote that I found and fell in love with... This was shortly after I had been feeling down and didn't think I needed to be here anymore. It goes "Celebrate this chance to be alive and breathing" I had overcome the sadness I was feeling. I was able to wake up and be glad that I was here on earth! It was as if I was given another chance. Something just hit me... I thought to myself, Ya know what I AM LOVED. AND I DO BELONG HERE. Thank god I made it through those hard times, I would of never had McKinley... She is my guardian angel. I know now that if everything falls to shit, I will always have her.. She keeps me alive! And I thank god she came to save me!

TEETH

So for the last week McKinley has been so miserable! She's had the snot nose, she has been fussy. Hasn't eaten like she normally does. Hasn't slept that great!! It's been a real patience test. Barely passed it! LOL I just feel soo bad for her. She is doing ok today. But she still isn't her normal self! But hey we got 4 teeth in! 2 on top and 2 on bottom. She is started crawling on Friday the 13th!! Luckily we had no major accidents... LOL She is crusin everywhere! Trying to pull herself up on things, she'll be walking in no time!!! Crazy to think that my baby is 8 months old already! Here is a pretty cute picture from Dre's wedding! I love my baby girl!

Busy Busy...

So this last weekend we went up camping with our friends. My mom took McKinley Friday night and Jarod's mom took her Saturday night... It was a nice little break, although I missed her the entire time! We went up to Moody, it's the perfect place for camping because your not to far from town, but once you get up there, you feel miles and miles away surrounded by trees. And of course the dang cows. Had one moo right behind my tent early in the morning Saturday! Scared the crap out of me!






Anyways, when we got up there Tammy cooked us an amazing chicken and potatoes dinner! It was yummy! Saturday was tin foil dinners! They were amazing too :) I just love camp fire food!!! There were quite a few of us up camping, it was a good turn out!!! Very mellow! We went on a booze cruise on a few dirt roads, haven't done that in awhile! Talked around the fire for hours... 4-wheeler rides, fishing, it was just an all around good time~

Rally For The Cure

Ok On Tuesday August 10, 2010 we had the Rally For The Cure scramble at the Rigby Golfcourse! It was a huge success! Thanks to my mom and sister... I helped but they did alot! There was a dunk booth, putting contest, and a chipping contest. We also held a huge raffle with tons of awesome prizes. I of course didn't win a damn thing, but it was for a great cause! We made shirts for the tourney! They were super cute!! I guess my mom is going to do it next year and we are going all out!! My Great Grandma Larimer had to have a mastectomy a long time ago, when the surgery to do that sort of thing wasn't as advanced. She never did get an implant and Gramps still loved her no matter what!! He was an amazing man! Anyways, we raised alot of money for the Cure and I would like everyone to know that I did my part for my Grandma!!! Love you!

This summer...

So this last weekend my friend Kaye was married! She looked absolutely beautiful! Her dress was amazing! Everyone seems to be getting married this summer... I wonder when we will actually have our reception. I would like to have one! And I would like to have it this summer. But seriously there is no open spots! I still have a couple more weddings I'm supposed to attend this summer!! I still want to float the river, I want to get our family pictures done.... I need my hair done that's for sure!! Holy Hell what a summer... Going camping this weekend! I hope it doesn't rain! I'm really excited about it!!! Definitely planning a trip to Boise to see Mallorie!!! Oh and the Warrant Concert is this month!! I'm stoked about it!!!